Not so daily thinker

Children of lesser God : return

Sometimes i have a thinking what it's like to be God.I try to understand why am i here...on this earth walking and breathing on the God point of view.

If only me in this whole universe,maybe i cannot find the way to understand that i am exist and all powerfull.That's why i have to create something that not me to understand about me.Like i cannot understand heat if i cannot know cold.So i create human,like myself i put them with all the power i can muster...a little other me.

But of course they must be less than me, but they have all the power to become like me, to understand that they are part of me.I have to give them a blank start so they can feel the progress as they grow towards me.So i, in them, can feel what it's like to be not me, to know me.

bottom line is: you have to be less than everything to know that you are everything.

Fiuhh....that's kinda confusing does it ?

Well, that's for today thought about what God want in me (the God in me wants to know).

Head hurt....cannot think straight...too close to the truth perhaps....maybe they will call me a blasphemer.

Children of lesser GOD

"At the beginning there is love and love becomes a man"

There something weird about my way of thinking, specially about God.It's been a while since i ask Her about anything i want to happen in my personal live, instead i cherish everything that live (or God) offer to me.

I used to think that God is everything like man, it can be mad and vengefull,can be good and calm,can be psychotic and anger,can be mercifull and compassion.God is a mere grandeur version of a human with the super power to do anything that we cannot do as a weaklings.

Than someday,with my not so daily thinker ability (Me hate to think....me don't think...me talk and kill and eat....heads hurt...real hurt when thinking abut God...me want to pray instead..and leave all this to others) i got some revealation.I try to change my point of view.I start to think if i got everything and can do everything why should i mad ? If i'm the ONLY and nothing in between why do i need anything ? If man is ME and universe is ME why should i punish ME ?

I try to understand the reason and God knows i try to understand Him.All of the sudden it came to me that She is not what i use to think He is.

"In the beginning there is love" That sentence always echoing in my mind now.If love there is then...why should we have hunger,war,poverty,famine and palgue ?

I want to ask God why this happen to us, i want to ask Her why didn't He do something about it...but i'm afraid that He ask me back "Why don't you ? you've got all the power I can give you, all of you."

Because i know that i haven't done enough...and i should be love.

To be continued...